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Mar. 26th, 2009 @ 01:42 pm Muzak
K peeps I need some new music. Recommend me something!
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Jan. 4th, 2009 @ 12:53 pm OK...
We had good sex the other night, and it was slow! I was pretty surprised. I was still hurting a little, but it was nice. I can't believe how quickly he came considering he wasn't like... you know, pounding me into the bed. He actually spent time kissing my neck and back and that got me aroused pretty nicely. Good to know it can still happen without having to have a penis pushed in me.
Also, I got books. It's driving me nuts that they haven't posted a what you bought or received in January thread on OF. I have so many I want to list!
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Dec. 29th, 2008 @ 08:31 pm What happened to me in 2008
What happened to me in 2008:
- I made the fifty book challenge for the first time! I've listed all the books I finished this year. I've also gotten a helluva lot more books on my stack and my wish list now. I opened up a whole new world of science fiction paying attention to what Anastasia reads. My close friend Kristen from wotmania and I learned our interests are very close as far as reading goes, too. So here's my list. Ask questions if you have them!

1. Laura Resnick- The White Dragon
2. When True Night Falls- CS Friedman
3. Crown of Shadows- CS Friedman
4. Stories of Your Life and Others- Ted Chiang
5. Shades of Time and Memory- Storm Constantine
6. The Road- Cormac McCarthy
7. Dark Moon- David Gemmell
8. Scar Night- Alan Campbell
9. Fight Club- Chuck Palahniuk
10. Glasshouse- Charles Stross
11. Old Man's War- John Scalzi
12. Wicked- Gregory Maguire
13. Sebastian- Anne Bishop
14. Belladonna- Anne Bishop
15. The Sparrow- Mary Doria Russell
16. The Destroyer Goddess- Laura Resnick
17. Angel of Darkness- Charles de Lint
18. Last Dragon- JM McDermott
19. Light- M. John Harrison
20. Grimspace- Ann Aguirre
21. The Wasp Factory- Iain Banks
22. Lords of Rainbow- Vera Nazarian
23. Beggars in Spain- Nancy Kress
24. The Player of Games- Iain M. Banks
25. The Princess Bride- William Goldman
26. Melusine- Sarah Monette
27. The Virtu- Sarah Monette
28. The Mirador- Sarah Monette
29. Dust- Elizabeth Bear
30. Wanderlust- Ann Aguirre
31. I Am Legend- Richard Matheson
32. Warchild- Karin Lowachee
33. The Book of Jhereg- Stephen Brust
34. Gabriel's Ghost- Linnea Sinclair
35. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time- Mark Haddon
36. A Companion to Wolves- Sarah Monette & Elizabeth Bear
37. Bright of the Sky- Kay Kenyon
38. The Last Wish- Andrzej Sapkowski
39. Kethani- Eric Brown
40. City of Pearl- Karen Traviss
41. The Last Hawk- Catherine Asaro
42. Fledgling- Octavia Butler
43. New Rules- Bill Maher
44. Schism- Catherine Asaro
45. The Mist- Stephen King
46. The Little Prince- Antoine de Saint-Exupery
47. The Hero of Ages- Brandon Sanderson
48. Black Beauty- Anna Sewell
49. Ascendant Sun- Catherine Asaro
50. The Ghosts of Blood and Innocence- Storm Constantine
51. Shades of Dark- Linnea Sinclair
52. The Stars My Destination- Alfred Bester
53. China Mountain Zhang- Maureen F. McHugh
54. Red Seas Under Red Skies- Scott Lynch


- I met Brandon Sanderson, my first author, in a Borders in Redmond, WA. He seems like a sweet geek, totally like a normal person. I mean, of course he's a normal person, authors aren't gods. But I was surprised by his humility and devotion to writing. I believe he'll do well by Robert Jordan's legacy.

- I moved from South Carolina to Seattle. A three day trip in a car ride, and a helluva lot of money getting things packed and moving into a new place. But it's much better, despite the lack of sunlight. I think the first year will be worst, and I get depressed in January- April anyway.

- I lived in two other places: Albuquerque, New Mexico, and Hanover, New Jersey. I worked temp in Abq for the end of last year through January of this year. I got to go to my first casino, see my first "real" mountain (the actual prompt to move out west, if you want the truth), ate at this amazing Brazilian restaurant called Tucano's. A few weeks after leaving Abq, I drove up to New Jersey by myself and stayed at a hotel for a two month period. Nick stayed home to pack up the house, but I had Angus and Ollie with me for company. I lost a little bit of weight at this gym across the highway from where I was at, and had a great personal trainer while I was there. Biggest problem being that you can't turn left on main roads in Jersey! I also had two flat tires while there. I loved where I worked, though. Got grand reviews, had a lot of responsibility. Met some friends there as well. Is it weird that I actually miss New Jersey??

- I got to see Miriam for the first time in ages, on the way to Seattle. We took a small detour into the Salt Lake City area where she is currently living. She looks great and seems to have her life in order. Much more than I do! She loved Nick. I didn't get to meet her new husband, though. She is now pregnant with a little girl and working hard to finish her schooling.

- My marriage turned a year old on June 29th. I can't imagine life without my husband. He saved my life, and I mean that literally. Without him, I would have committed suicide eventually, I think. Or gone off with some crazy who would have killed me. Just his mere presence is like a balm to my soul.

- I got snow twice in the month of April (and threw Ollie in it.) Once in Wyoming on the way here (jeez, a lot happened on that trip!) and then once after we got here. We have also gotten a lot this month, which is highly unusual for the northwest, which usually has a mild winter. I'm not complaining, though. I love the snow!

- I've gained about 20 lbs. Ugh, I'd rather not talk about that part. ;)
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Nov. 22nd, 2008 @ 05:33 pm
I seem to have nightmares a lot on this medication.

Last night was disturbing. I was a captive of a guy who was sort of Freddy Krueger-ish. I don't know what specifically. I mean, he wasn't burned or anything, though I do think he had some sort of claw-like hand covers or something. Anyway, he would murder people, though I don't think I was around to see most of them, and then I would fight him, but he would always win and then he would torture me, mostly sexually. I was there when the investigators arrived, but he hid me away so they wouldn't find me. I saw Mariska Hargitay (from Law and Order SVU) come in and realize it was him. I turned away to another scene at that moment, though I asked him later if she survived, and he grinned at me all creepy-like and then said she hadn't.
The worst part of the dream was at the end, when I stumbled upon him killing these people in a bar. He had a big tub with him and he forced me to take a bath in their bodily fluids. Ugh. But it wasn't blood, it was yellow and clear, like peritoneal, pleural, and spinal fluid with some urine. He said it would cleanse me.

Every day, I say something or other that makes me think it will end up in a nightmare, and I'll mentally take it and close it behind a door. And I won't dream of it. But there's no way I can put everything behind a door like that. So something always comes out of my subconscious to fuck with me. I mean, where did that come from?? I feel violated.
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Oct. 18th, 2008 @ 09:08 pm

Oh sweet nurse angel. *sighs*

I went to the doctor on Monday for some blood sugar issues, and he decided to take a baseline CBC, CMP, and thyroid panel. And something else, dunno what. So naturally this means I have to have a bunch of blood taken, and I hate having blood taken. I used to pass out all the time. Now I don't really, but it still sucks. A few years ago when I was hospitalized for dehydration, three nurses tried to stick me six times before a doctor came in and did it herself. And even she had to twist it like seven times. Ugh. That was for the IV.
Anyway, I asked to lay down and she let me. I was watching her as she was sticking me. Normally I prefer to pretend it's not happening, but I couldn't take my eyes off this girl. I asked her where she was from. She sounded like she had a weird French-ish accent to me. She's from Tunisia, with Arabic being her first language (naturally), French her second, and English her third. She could've been Idina Menzel's sister. (I <3333333 Idina Menzel. She's so gorgeous!)

It was the first time I've ever not wanted to stop having my blood drawn.

That's Idina at the top. ;)
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Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 01:44 pm
Open iTunes or Media Player. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.

Sort by song-
First Song: 4 Page Letter- Aaliyah
Last Song: Low- Flo Rida featuring T-pain

Sort by time-
Shortest Time: 1:06- Maynard's religion speech (live)
Longest Time: 27:05- Bela Bartok- Music for Strings, Percussion, and Celestia


Sort by artist-
First Artist: Aaliyah
Last Artist : Also Fiddy :D

Sort by album-
First Album: A.S.A Crew- Maximum the Hormone
Last Album: 25 Mozart Favorites

Search the key word and see how many songs appear:
"Sex":  2
"Death": 4
"Love": 23
"You": 56
"Me": 141
"Drugs": 2
"Hate": 4
"Dark": 3
"Blood": 0
"Happy": 0
"Song": 20

TOTAL SONGS: 637

Do The Shuffle!
Shuffle your library and list the first five songs. No padding your playlist you hipster, you. Be honest!!
Well, here's an interesting mix.

1. Any Dream Will Do- Donny Osmond
2. Bia Bia- Lil' Jon and the Eastside Boyz
3. Nothing Else Matters- Metallica
4. The Wind Beneath My Wings- Bette Midler
5. Trial Before Pilate- Jesus Christ Superstar
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Aug. 25th, 2008 @ 04:59 pm
 Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Write down the first lines from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

Mine should be easy. 
1. How you doin' young lady/ That feelin’ that you givin’ really drives me crazy

2. On my own, pretending he's beside me/ All alone, I walk with him till morning On my own- Les Miserables

3. threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back,/ a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same.

4. Get up, get up now. /Free yourself from yourself./ Locked up inside you like gold beneath castles is a/ Cavern of treasures that no one has been to

5. Close every door to me/ Hide all the world from me/ Bar all the windows/ And shut out the lights

6. Sitting here wasted and wounded at this old piano/ Trying hard to capture the moment this morning I don't know

7. Who do you think you are?
Barging in on me and my guitar
Little girl -- hey
The door is that way Light My Candle/ No Day but Today- Rent

8. You took your coat off and stood in the rain/ You're always crazy like that.

9. I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh/ I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

10. What's it gonna be cuz I can't pretend/ Don't you wanna be more than friends

11. Alrighty, then ... picture this if you will. 10 to 2 AM, X, Yogi DMT, and a box of Krispy Kremes,
in my "need to know" pose, just outside of Area 51

12. My God I saw him he looked three quarters dead/ and he was so bad I had to turn my head

13. That's all I wanted, something special, Something sacred in your eyes,/ For just one moment, to be bold and naked At your side

14. Who doesn't know what I'm talking about/ Who's never left home, who's never struck out

15. I wanna see your pussy, everybody says it's nice/ Can I come and visit I'll be at your house tonight

16. Work it harder make it better/ Do it faster makes us stronger 

17. You told me that you would always be the only thing that I'd ever need/ telling all friends that they were never good enough to be with me

18. Jesse come home, there's a hole in the bed/ Where we slept, now it's growing cold

19. I was born to brew up storms, stir up shit,/ kick up dust, cuss till I slur up spit 

20. Reject are you no one feeling nothing/ You know I'll bet you think you have a good reason



  
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Jul. 27th, 2008 @ 09:25 pm

 

Wow. Just. Wow.

 

To those of you who still read my livejournal, please please please if you read anything this year, read Sarah Monette's Melusine and The Virtu. I am not going to be able to get the characters out of my head for weeks. Amazing books, I promise you'll love them.

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Jul. 15th, 2008 @ 09:16 am
Current Location: Work
Today I feel...: eh

Question: How do you force yourself to do something you don't really want to do? How do you motivate yourself?

(Especially after a 10 hour workday).

Conversation with Nick:

Nick: You should see this woman. My leg could get lost in her camel toe, she's so fat. 
Me: Ewww, no thanks. You know what I find odd, though? When a woman looks so much bigger than me, but doesn't weigh near as much as I do.
Nick: That's because you have a lot of muscle mass. Though I don't understand how, it's not like you do anything.

Thanks, hon. :P

Also, I want to get motivated. Did I mention that? Why in the hell is it so hard? I need to work out, basically. I want to get back to the little hottie I once was. :( I need some suggestions.

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May. 12th, 2008 @ 03:14 pm
Today I feel...: crushed
I hurt.
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May. 6th, 2008 @ 03:53 pm Play with me!
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha. I should really make a friends-only post about something that's on my mind. If it keeps bugging me, I'll do it.

Anyway, here's a fun game. :) Scattergories. Try to come up with something that starts with the same letter as your last name. A real word, people!

1. Color..................................... Dark brown
2. 4 letter word......................... Dick!
3. Vehicle: ................................ Dodge
4. City / Neighborhood: .......... Detroit
5. Boy Name: ........................... Dick!
6. Girl Name: ........................... Delilah
7. Occupation: ......................... Driver
8. Something you wear:.......... Dress
9. Food: ..................................... Delicious!
10. Found in a bathroom:....... Dirty people
11. Reason for Being Late...... Dog ate my homework. Wait, no, that's something else. Um. Drowsy?
12. Something you shout:........ Dick!
13. Animal:.................................. Dog
14. Body part:............................. Dick!
15. Word to describe you: ....... Devious.
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Apr. 28th, 2008 @ 06:22 pm
Hi all!

I am so sorry that I haven't been around to update in forever. Is long story, but to make it short, I was working in Albuquerque when I was sent to New Jersey. I didn't have internet access there. Then we moved out of our house, which is on the market now. We are living in Everett, Washington, where I got a permanent job working at a research company. That's the short version. Washington is beautiful. The funniest thing was, we have hit snow in *April*. On the way here, 4-9, we got held up in Laramie, Wyoming in a snowstorm that closed the roadways. Then on 4-11, Friday, we had to get here quick so I could get my pre-employment screening done, and we ended up in avalanche control in the pass that leads to Seattle through the mountains. We waited for an hour and a half. There was literally 10 feet of snow on the side of the road. Then... a week and a half ago, we got 8 inches of snow here in Everett. How weird.

Anyway, I'll start updating more soon. Miss you guys!
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Jan. 12th, 2008 @ 07:43 pm Teh hotness!
The sounds caressing my ears:: Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts
Hottest people in the world:





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Dec. 27th, 2007 @ 04:55 pm Thanks, guys!
Today I feel...: aggravated
 Excellent!

You Are A:


True Neutral Human Druid (4th Level)



Ability Scores:
Strength- 12
Dexterity- 16
Constitution- 10
Intelligence- 18
Wisdom- 16
Charisma- 13

Alignment:
True Neutral- A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Class:
Druids- Druids gain power not by ruling nature but by being at one with it. They hate the unnatural, including aberrations or undead, and destroy them where possible. Druids receive divine spells from nature, not the gods, and can gain an array of powers as they gain experience, including the ability to take the shapes of animals. The weapons and armor of a druid are restricted by their traditional oaths, not simply training. A druid's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that they can cast.

Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (16)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (19)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)

Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXX (9)
Chaos --- XXXXXXXX (8)

Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Evil ---- XXXX (4)

Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Elf ------ XXXX (4)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Halfling - XXXXXX (6)
Half-Elf - XXXXXX (6)
Half-Orc - XXXX (4)

Class:
Barbarian - (-6)
Bard ------ (0)
Cleric ---- (-6)
Druid ----- XXXXXX (6)
Fighter --- (-2)
Monk ------ (-19)
Paladin --- (-21)
Ranger ---- (0)
Rogue ----- XX (2)
Sorcerer -- XX (2)
Wizard ---- XX (2)
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Dec. 18th, 2007 @ 08:23 pm
 1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? Yes.
2. Slept in a different bed? Yes.
3. Made out in a movie theatre? Yes.
4. made out with 2 different people in one night? Ah, threesomes, how I miss you.
5. Thought your cousin was hot? When I was very young, and didn't understand the concept of "related."
6. Been in love? Yes.
7. Slept past noon? Yes.
8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? Yes.
9. Gone over the speed limit? Always.
10. Painted your room? No.
11. Drove a car? Yeah.
12. Danced in front of your mirror? Yeah, bad idea.
13. Gotten a hickey? Yes. *glares at Nick*
14. Been dumped? Yes.
15. Stole money from a friend? No.
16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes.
17. Been in a fist fight? No.
18. Snuck out of your house? No.
19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yeah.
20. Been arrested? No.
21. Made out with a stranger? No.
22. Left your house with out telling your parents? No.
23. Had a crush on your neighbor? No.
24. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yeah.
25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex? Ya think?
26. Seen someone die? Ugh, no. But not only have I seen dead bodies, I've cut them open!
27. Been on a plane? Yep.
28. Kissed a picture? Yep.
29. Slept in the opposite sex's bed? Heh.
30. Love someone or miss someone right now? <3.
31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? No.
32. Made a snow angel? Yes, tried a snowman, but it turned out to be a snow nipple.
33. Played dress up? Yes.
34. Cheated while playing a game? I don't think so.
35. Been lonely? Yes.
36. Fallen asleep at work/school? Heh, yes.
37. Been to a club? Yes, they're not so much fun.
38. Felt an earthquake? No.
39. Touched a snake? Yes.
40. Ran a red light? I'm sure.
41. Been suspended from school? No.
42. Had detention? Once, with Shelley. I don't even remember wtf we did.
43. Been in a car? Duh?
44. Hated the way you look? Yeah.
45. Witnessed a crime? No.
46. Been lost? Yeah.
47. Been to the opposite side of the country? Am there now.
48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? Hasn't everybody?
49. Cried yourself to sleep? Yeah.
50. Sang karaoke? Yeah, but in a friend's house.
51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Of course.
52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes.
53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes.
54. Kissed in the rain? Mmm, fun!
55. Sung in the shower? Yes.
56. Had a dream that you married someone? No, but I did marry someone.
57. Played getting married? Yeah.
58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No.
59. Ever gone to school partially nude? Haha.
60. Been a blind date? I don't think so.
61. Sat on a roof top? No.
62. Didn't take a shower for a week? No.
63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? Don't think so, but I know that after scary movies I've been scared to be alone.
64. Played chicken? No, I'm not suicidal.
65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No.
66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Back when I was hot, yeah.
67. Broken a bone? No.
68. Been easily amused? Hee!
69. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes, recently, looking at funny book covers.
70. Cheated on a test? Yep.
71. Forgotten someone's name? All the time.
72. Blacked out from drinking? Yes. In the midst of throwing up, too.
73. Played a prank on someone? Not that I remember.
74. Gone to a late night movie? Yeah, but it's been a long time.
75. Made love to anything not human? o.O
76. Failed a class? Yes.
77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No.
78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Yeah, in drum corps.
79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend? Yes.
80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? I <3 that day!
81. Thrown strange objects? o.O
82. Felt like someone else? Felt a little surreal.
83. Thought about running away? No.
84. Ran away? No.
85. Had detention and not attend it? *laughs* No.
86. Made parents cry? Yeah, at my college graduation. :)
87. Cried over someone? Yes.
88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No.
89. Dated someone more than once? No.
90. Have a dog? No.
91. Own an instrument? Used to.
92. Been in a band? Yes.
93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No, jeez that's a lot.
94. Broken a cd? Yes. :(
95. Shot a gun? No.
96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours? Not yet.
97. Fell asleep at the computer? Nope.
98. Have a major crush on someone right now? Yeah, my husband! And a girl at work.
99. Have a religion? Nope.
100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral? Nope.
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Dec. 16th, 2007 @ 08:40 pm 7 reasons I love my husband...
The sounds caressing my ears:: America- Man's Road

 1. His presence is like a balm to my soul. It's almost like he has an aura that calms me no matter what I'm feeling.

2. He accepts me for who I am. He never tries to change me, even when I'm in moods he can't understand.

3. He's gorgeous and sexy on the outside. I'm always amazed at how looking at him makes me feel, butterflies and all that stuff that I thought would be gone long ago.

4. He's beautiful on the inside. Even though he pretends to be evil and mean sometimes, he really cares about people, about the kids he takes care of, about those he loves.

5. He loves with all his heart. Never in my life did I think I'd find someone who loves as deeply as I do.

6. His sense of humor is so close to my own. He makes me laugh and smile no matter how dark my day is.

7. He's more sexually compatible with me than anyone I ever met. He knows what I like and how to push my buttons. But the best part is, we don't have to have sex to really enjoy each other.

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Dec. 15th, 2007 @ 02:00 am
The sounds caressing my ears:: Joan Baez- Diamonds and Rust
 
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Dec. 10th, 2007 @ 04:37 pm
 l a s t
1. friend you saw: Felicia, since I work with her.
2. Talked to on the phone: My mom!
3. Text: Amanda or Felicia.
4. person messaged over myspace: Vicky.

t o d a y
1. Wearing: Blue scrubs earlier, bath robe now.
2. Better than yesterday? Heh, no, I had to work!

t o m o r r o w
1. Is: Tuesday.
2. Got any plans: We're going to the mountain up the tramway! Yay, snow!
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: Work, mostly because of Diosa. Ick.

F a v o r i t e
1. Number: 12, I guess, my old softball number.
2. color(s): Midnight blue, earth tones. Nothing too outrageous, though I like dark red too.
3. Season: Fall or spring. Summer and winter are too extreme.

c u r r e n t l y
1. Missing someone: Yes, but it seems so awful compared to poor Kristen. :( My man's just gone for 8 hours!
2. Mood: Is thirsty a mood?
3. Wanting: More people to join myspace.

Qs & As

Q: First thing you did this morning:
A: Bitched at my husband for waking me up. :P

Q: Last thing you ate:
A: Arby's chicken sandwich.

Q: do you have anything bothering you?:
A: Diosa at work. Bipolar disorder.

Q: What's annoying you right now?:
A: Wishing I had more to do when Nick's at work.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: The Golden Compass.

Q: Do you believe in long distance relationships?
A: Well, I was in one for quite some time. Hell, three at various points. And one of them worked out quite nicely!

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: Yes

Q: Do you think that a person is thinking of you too?
A: He's probably thinking about his customers. Damn customers.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A. Smith's groceries.

Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
A: My mom, yes. My dad- so say people who have met him.

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: Yes

Q: Do you smile often?
A: When Nick is around, yeah. I try to as much as possible anyway.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: I'm always in cities, so I never see them. :(

Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: Oh is that a loaded question. I'm guarded, until you  get to know me, then I'm insane.

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Uh, mine.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: My robe is white.

Q: What were you doing at 12 last night?
A: Sleeping, but barely.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Friday, a week and a half ago.

Q: Do you get angry easily?
A: I'm usually pretty calm, but if you piss me off, I'm done with you.

Q: What was your last thought before you went to sleep last night??
A: Probably something crazy, like It's a pilloh? Bonus for those who get that reference!

Q: Take any vitamins?
A: I take enough pills as is!

Q: What are you about to do?
A: Get some water and listen to music.

Q: Do you ever check your phone waiting for someone to call?
A: Yeah, I'm obsessive.

Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10.
A: 6. The out look is good, the day to day could use some help. My finances aren't good and lately my job has been shit. But I do have my husband, who is remarkably good at making me less serious.

Q: Would you say that most people who first meet you like you?
A: I'm a love-me or hate-me kind of person. People usually don't know how to take me at first. I'm rather blunt, and I'm not so good at the small talk.
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Nov. 29th, 2007 @ 07:14 pm
Today I feel...: aggravated
The sounds caressing my ears:: Kelly Clarkson- Beautiful Disaster
 It's almost like being drunk. Only not as peaceful. I'm agitated, I can't focus, I can't stay entertained. And that makes me... cycle. Between energy (and no way to release it) and sadness. What reason do I have to be sad???

God, everyone is fighting their demons right now. I feel so bad for not keeping my friends closer to me. Now I feel like no one is here for me, and that's my fault. I don't talk to anybody anymore. I feel out of the loop. \
But my marriage is wonderful. I would never regret a single second spent with Nick. I feel like I've found the exact thing I've been seeking my whole life. We hold each other every night, and for those moments, my fears and pain go away. 

Isn't it weird, then, that I feel like this? Let's just say I'm not suicidal, but I can see how this would drive people to it. Hypomania is one of the best things I've ever felt. Euphoria! But now it's gone too far. I need to stay on my meds. I only missed two days, last week! And not even together. Let this be a lesson, kiddies!
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Sep. 6th, 2007 @ 12:49 pm

 Go to www.lolcats.com if you're bored.

Also, www.overheardinnewyork.com, but I imagine most of you already know that.

If you're really in the mood for some sick stuff, www.moid.org/ed is your place!

Hey, I'm bored at work. And none of you guys are ever on lj anymore! :(

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